Ballad #2: Endings

And she who causes me
The most pain
Asks for the greatest forgiveness

And he whom
Has turned her against me
Shall suffer

And they who
Take the most valued thing in my
Life
Shall cry

And I whom cause havoc
And wreak pain
...
Shall leave

ballad #1

I watch
Every moment hoping for
Happiness

Instead I find sorrow
Will there be no just tomorrow
...

Broken

Overwhelming saddness
A burning type of maddness
Seeing you with her
Wanting to rip out her hair

I want you to see me
I want you in my life
But why do you continue this
While Im in sorrowing strife

I wanted to ask you
For you to know
How far I would go
I want you to understand
That this isnt a pissed off demand

Just a form of love
From a lost and broken dove
I wanted you to care
For our love to be fair

But I saw you with her
I feel like dying
crying

Save me...

Lots of stuff

I'm starting to wonder
what's wrong with me
Feeling as if nooner capable
Of loving me

I--->>~~>~~}

Moments drift away

I awake from my sleep
to shun the day and weep
I want so badly to show I'm happy
but inside its killing me

I'm screaming in desperation

Why can no one see me?
Save me

My hero in shinig armor
is he ever going to cone again
rather than ask to just be friends

Please lover find me...,
Kiss me
Hug me
Hold me
Embrace me,

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A little bit about me..;


I've been Wiccan since I was 8,my mom and I
practiced together

The first fantasy book I ever read was interview
with the vampire by Anne rice

I'm in grade 10 and love l/a

I have a thing for asain girls and Latinas

Boys with shaggy hair or anime
like hair are definitly attractive

I'm considered a heathen atschool
by the principal

Lastly I discovered I was bisexual
when I was 11 at the gay pride parade

her

Big brown eyes
Petite, curvy body
Beautiful Face
I think I love her

But there's a poison
tainting her
the boy,
lying and cheating

She thinks were just friends but were so
much more...

slip

Screaming
Slipping
Falling to my death

Pain
only temporarily
then bliss sweet bliss

Happiness so divine that there is no need for change
Love so pure you don't have to look anymore

For that brief glimpse
of your death
Can be easily changed

Awakening in a hospital bed
Restrained no freedom
Panic

Your magick consumes you
Cast the dark spell
Change Change

Fantasy to reality
Which is real? Fantasy?
or
Reality?

As I laid there...

As i laid there
I heard his heart beating
And my heart was in time with his
1,2,1,2,1,2

The night was quite ... eventful
It started with a moon lit dinner
We sat there and talked
Talked about out day,
I told him how much I loved him
He whispered "I couldm't imagine life
without you"

I stood up sensing we should leave
I knew from the look in his eyes
That he wanted something
but I couldn't determine what

While in the care
I sighed for being so naive
After all he was 4 years older
I sat there and thought
why is he with me

We arrived at my house
and he walked me to my door
We stood there, and he stared at me
with those amazing Emerald-Green eyes
Oh those eyes devoured my soul

He whispered 'I love you'
His lips brushing against mine
I closed my eyes lost in sensation
Then he kissed me
It was the most passionate
torturing kiss ever

Moments later I opened the door
Silent from the kiss
He followed me like a lost kitten

I started freaking out
I wasn't sure if he was the right one
But for some reason I wanted him
I lusted for his touch
He came to my room
The moon and stars making patterns on the wall
The night and our love consumed us

I awoke hours later
I heard his heart beat
Mine in time with his
1,2,1,2,1,2
And I knew I was in love