Ballad #2: Endings

And she who causes me
The most pain
Asks for the greatest forgiveness

And he whom
Has turned her against me
Shall suffer

And they who
Take the most valued thing in my
Life
Shall cry

And I whom cause havoc
And wreak pain
...
Shall leave

ballad #1

I watch
Every moment hoping for
Happiness

Instead I find sorrow
Will there be no just tomorrow
...

Broken

Overwhelming saddness
A burning type of maddness
Seeing you with her
Wanting to rip out her hair

I want you to see me
I want you in my life
But why do you continue this
While Im in sorrowing strife

I wanted to ask you
For you to know
How far I would go
I want you to understand
That this isnt a pissed off demand

Just a form of love
From a lost and broken dove
I wanted you to care
For our love to be fair

But I saw you with her
I feel like dying
crying

Save me...

Lots of stuff

I'm starting to wonder
what's wrong with me
Feeling as if nooner capable
Of loving me

I--->>~~>~~}

Moments drift away

I awake from my sleep
to shun the day and weep
I want so badly to show I'm happy
but inside its killing me

I'm screaming in desperation

Why can no one see me?
Save me

My hero in shinig armor
is he ever going to cone again
rather than ask to just be friends

Please lover find me...,
Kiss me
Hug me
Hold me
Embrace me,

----------~~~~~~~~~-----~~~~~

A little bit about me..;


I've been Wiccan since I was 8,my mom and I
practiced together

The first fantasy book I ever read was interview
with the vampire by Anne rice

I'm in grade 10 and love l/a

I have a thing for asain girls and Latinas

Boys with shaggy hair or anime
like hair are definitly attractive

I'm considered a heathen atschool
by the principal

Lastly I discovered I was bisexual
when I was 11 at the gay pride parade

her

Big brown eyes
Petite, curvy body
Beautiful Face
I think I love her

But there's a poison
tainting her
the boy,
lying and cheating

She thinks were just friends but were so
much more...

slip

Screaming
Slipping
Falling to my death

Pain
only temporarily
then bliss sweet bliss

Happiness so divine that there is no need for change
Love so pure you don't have to look anymore

For that brief glimpse
of your death
Can be easily changed

Awakening in a hospital bed
Restrained no freedom
Panic

Your magick consumes you
Cast the dark spell
Change Change

Fantasy to reality
Which is real? Fantasy?
or
Reality?

As I laid there...

As i laid there
I heard his heart beating
And my heart was in time with his
1,2,1,2,1,2

The night was quite ... eventful
It started with a moon lit dinner
We sat there and talked
Talked about out day,
I told him how much I loved him
He whispered "I couldm't imagine life
without you"

I stood up sensing we should leave
I knew from the look in his eyes
That he wanted something
but I couldn't determine what

While in the care
I sighed for being so naive
After all he was 4 years older
I sat there and thought
why is he with me

We arrived at my house
and he walked me to my door
We stood there, and he stared at me
with those amazing Emerald-Green eyes
Oh those eyes devoured my soul

He whispered 'I love you'
His lips brushing against mine
I closed my eyes lost in sensation
Then he kissed me
It was the most passionate
torturing kiss ever

Moments later I opened the door
Silent from the kiss
He followed me like a lost kitten

I started freaking out
I wasn't sure if he was the right one
But for some reason I wanted him
I lusted for his touch
He came to my room
The moon and stars making patterns on the wall
The night and our love consumed us

I awoke hours later
I heard his heart beat
Mine in time with his
1,2,1,2,1,2
And I knew I was in love

For a friend whose afraid of his life--{ for mirrorboy}

Its out
They all know
The taunting,
Haunting

Rumors, Rumors
Spreading like tumors
Lies, laughing
Cruel childs play

I'm out its out

Friends not there
to say its ok

No one to hold me
Fold me into there arms
To protect me from the harm

Lovely, Lovely, its ok
Tomorrow will be another day
Were here
No Fear

Dont let it consume
We love you

{ As the gay community comes together
let us be unified, you won't walk alone these
scary days for you, we are in you and around
you }

Blood Lust

Kiss me
Love me

Cold skinned creature
Hold me
Caress me

Creature of the night
Hang on tight
I swear I won't put up a fight

Make me forget humanity
Drive me away from sanity

Dont be shy
unlike anyother guy

Give in to me
Seduce me
Bite me

Taste the blood
let it flow through you
Feel my heart fading
Turn me

Bring me to your world
Release me from humanity
Devour my soul

Fluid movements
Sensuality
Taste me

Free me
Jump with me

Disappear...
Together you sired me

Suicide

Crying
Screaming
Flying
Seething

Rage

Paint me a picture would you
Of a woman with her heart split in two
a failure
a thief
Yet a sense of beautiful grief

Suicide, Homocide, Genocide
Isnt it just an act of the soul
That devours your life into that hole

Dont we crave trouble
Lust for Danger

Broken Hearted, Lust, Happy, Die, Fuck off

I can't

I am incapable
This fate is unescapable
How can I love you
Yet be split in two,

You are my world

But, I dont love you
I never have
This truth splits me in two
But love, can no longer hold it

Lover you bared your soul

You let me control it
This confession makes me feel like shit
Alas my dear, I did love you before
But now I am walking out the door

You were my first love, I'll always have feelings
for you

Even when the clouds turn black and the ocean blue
But baby,
I can no longer cater to you

Its ok breathe, walk away, dont look at me
with your teary eyes, dont bare your soul
for me, I'm not the one, its true,

I'll miss your lips and your embrace, your
god like face, sensitivity, and how caring
you were for me,

But love its time to leave

--

A gaze neverending
Feelings of confusion
Thoughts of sorrow, remorse
The saddness
Will eventually lead to madness
The love
Was a gift of above
Has been tainted
From this hell we have painted

---->

Honey, I love you
Please dont let me go
As long as the river flows
I need your touch
The maddness is such
An Electrifying feeling

Your face
Is one to embrace
Because when unexpected, it will knock me off my feet
Like slipping on the sleet

Crazed

Disturbed
Falling Down
Glass breaking through the skin
Screams of pain, passion
Controlling your mind, the voice that speaks within

Consuming your mind with hatred
Uncapability to think without its opinion
Give in or no?

Screaming
Dancing
Blood spilling from within
Turning to darkness
Dripping, Swimming
Dying, Pain

Cursed
and
Crazed

Sanity

Sanity,
its a confusing thing
its whether or not sanity
is Normality

I'm losing Sanity
to Insanity
in a judgemental world

Slipping, Falling
Losing Sight
Gasping for air
The abyss pulling me under

Drowning me in
my sorrows
Suffocating me
with doubt

Tidal wave
of Anger,
Frustration,
Confusion

Blinding my
sight
Taking my
ability to speak

Strapping me to the ground
Pinning me down
Leave, Leave, I say
Never Return, your
hurting me,
Killing Me
Pleading for Sanity
The key is in you
Insanity will lead back
to Sanity...
Eventually